Stop Giving Up

This might need to be my new mantra. Today on my run, I was not loving the hills or the flat parts. I didn’t care for the uneven sidewalks or the fantastic weather. Today I was running. Not necessarily enjoying myself.

About two miles in I tried to figure out what separates the runs where you genuinely enjoy yourself and the runs where it really does feel like work. I didn’t come to any prophetic conclusions except that I haven’t been running much so these past few runs have felt like work. At least the past two runs haven’t resulted in any foot pain so I may be on the upswing.

I’m not exactly giving up, but I do need to remember to stop starting over.

Tahiti Honeymoon

We finally went on our honeymoon. We spent seven glorious days in Tahiti and Moorea, completely disconnected from the rest of the world. I went eight days without technology and it completely cleansed my soul. We lived in the water – snorkeling, kayaking, paddle boating – and ate ourselves silly.

Moorea Bungalow

Our resort backed up to the mountains of Moorea while sitting in a serene lagoon.

 

Tahiti

This was my view for 7 days. Tahiti is off in the distance and the water is so clear, you can see 50 feet to the bottom.

Tahiti Bungalow

The view of the bungalows from the infinity swimming pool.

Aching Knees

aching kneesWe just completed week two of our half marathon training and over these past two weeks I have logged more than 4 hours of pavement pounding. All that pavement pounding has left me with a dull ache in my knees that I can’t quite get rid of. I can’t decide if it is a temporary pain that will just go away as my body gets used to the workouts but that is what I am hoping. I also nabbed a sweet new pair of shoes and those take time to adjust as well. Lots going on but it has been fun so far.

The fundraising is going well too. I have a corporate sponsorship of $2,500 and individual donations totaling almost $3,000. That’s almost a fourth of our total goal but we still have a long way to go. I’m just amazed that when all is said and done, I will have raised almost $10,000 to benefit the Crohn’s and Colitis Foundation. I’m keeping a list of sponsors posted so please support these businesses if you want.

We leave for Moorea on Wednesday and we are packing our kicks and workout clothes to keep up with our runs. I’m not sure we will have time between laying on the beach and snorkeling. We will definitely try our best.

Week One Complete

Half marathon training, week one – COMPLETE! After joining last week our workouts began last Sunday and despite having to change some of them around because of our bowling league conflicts, we managed to complete every single workout on our plan.

Sunday: 20 minute run
Monday: 35 minute run
Tuesday: 40 minute run
Wednesday: Bowling league (where I bowled my best game!)
Thursday: Off, kickoff meeting for Team Challenge!
Friday: 40 minute run

Today was the group training session where we got to meet the entire team. It was so cold and ridiculously windy this morning so we bundled up before heading out to Runner’s Roost in Denver. I’m not a morning person (at all!) but getting up to run with this group at 8am (yep, you read that right) on a Saturday wasn’t too bad. I was actually excited!

We had a gear clinic where the guys at Runner’s Roost explained running shoes, wicking clothing, nutrition, hydration, and everything in between. We then went out for some dynamic stretching, a 30 minute team run, followed by static stretching. I tend to hurt myself, very easily, so I need to make sure I take time to stretch after each run.

So the total for this week was 165 minutes! Hopefully this really kicks my arse into shape while helping such an amazing cause!

Half Marathon Training

Team Challenge is an amazing organization that is not only raising money to find a cure for Crohn’s Disease, but they are also whipping me into shape. Part of the process is training for a half marathon with my pro coach, Coach Mike. I’m only two days in but I’m excited to see where I am at the end of our 15 week training session.

The first day of training was Sunday and the task for the day was a 20 minute run. I’m following the advanced runner path but not sure if that is what I’m supposed to be doing. I guess I will figure it out when I am falling apart a couple of weeks from now when we start interval or speed workouts. My 20 minute run ended at 1.8 miles in the indoor track and today’s 35 minute run ended at 1.9 miles indoors as well.

Our team kickoff meeting is Thursday and our first group workout is Saturday at 8AM! If you want to help me meet my sponshorship goals, please donate. Even the smallest donation becomes part of a much larger effort to find a cure for Crohn’s!

About Crohn’s Disease

We made the leap! We joined Team Challenge, an endurance sports training program that benefits the Crohn’s and Colitis Foundation. As someone who has lived with Crohn’s Disease for three-fourths of her life, I have a personal vendetta to find a cure for this chronic, pain in the butt (literally) disease. For you to really understand why I am so passionate about this, I thought I would start by explaining what Crohn’s Disease is.

Crohn’s is part of family of chronic gastrointestinal diseases that causes inflammation of the digestive tract. While it can affect everything from the mouth to the anus, it mostly affects the small intestines or the colon. For me, Crohn’s affects my entire colon. I’m lucky that it hasn’t taken up residence anywhere else. As a whole, not a lot is known about this disease and there isn’t a cure, which is why we are doing Team Challenge. We do know that it is an autoimmune disorder that causes the body to attach itself, specifically the digestive tract.

The immune system is composed of various cells and proteins. Normally, these protect the body from infection. In people with Crohn’s disease, however, the immune system reacts inappropriately. Researchers believe that the immune system mistakes microbes, such as bacteria that is normally found in the intestines, for foreign or invading substances, and launches an attack. In the process, the body sends white blood cells into the lining of the intestines, where they produce chronic inflammation. These cells then generate harmful products that ultimately lead to ulcerations and bowel injury. When this happens, the patient experiences the symptoms of IBD.  via CCFA

A cause hasn’t been identified but it is likely a mix of hereditary genes, the immune system, and outside influences. Every person reacts differently, which probably doesn’t help the researchers find a cure any quicker. Every person has different triggers. For example, someone with Crohn’s might find that dairy or caffeine cause flares while I can eat almost anything I want (except leafy greens like lettuce). Stress could be another trigger and even that is not confirmed research. There really is so much more we need to learn and understand before we can even get close to finding a cure.

Anyone can get it. Any race. Any age. Any background. Just like with other diseases (and love!) there are no boundaries. There is a genetic factor; 20-25 percent of people with Crohn’s probably also have a family member with either Crohn’s or Colitis. In my case, it would have been my aunt on my Mom’s side of the family. Researches are making huge strides in pinpointing specific genetic markers that help identify the makeup of a Crohn’s patient, which will hopefully lead to a complete mapping of a Crohn’s disease in a person.

There are many medications on the market to treat Crohn’s and other varieties of IBD diseases, so many that I won’t bore you with long names that no one my doctor’s can pronounce. I personally take Imuran, Lyalda, and Remicade. All three combined keep me in high spirits and my disease in remission.

The numbers, you ask? There are an estimated 1.4 million Americans living with IBD right now and approximately 80 people learn they have either Crohn’s or Colitis EVERYDAY. Those affected are mostly between 15 and 35 years of age but 10% are just kids under the age of 18.

I have had Crohn’s for 20 years. I’m not finding a cure for myself. I’m finding a cure for all the kids that I hope and pray don’t have to grow up in the same misery that I did. 

I haven’t even touched on symptoms because those can be rather uncomfortable and, let’s face it, disgusting. Read on if you want to know the gruesome details. If not, you should probably stop here. But please consider helping me find a cure and donate to my fundraising campaign. My goal is 12,600 and trust me, I could use all the donations I can get, both large and small. Donations are tax deductible and can be made securely online.

Now on to the gross part. Shall we list them?

Persistent diarrhea (loose, watery, or frequent bowel movements), crampy abdominal pain, fever, and, at times, rectal bleeding: These are the hallmark symptoms of Crohn’s disease, but they vary from person to person and may change over time. Loss of appetite and subsequent weight loss also may occur. However, the disease is not always limited to the GI tract; it can also affect the joints, eyes, skin, and liver. Fatigue is another common complaint. Children who have Crohn’s disease may suffer delayed growth and sexual development.

Some patients may develop tears (fissures) in the lining of the anus, which may cause pain and bleeding, especially during bowel movements. Inflammation may also cause a fistula to develop. A fistula is a tunnel that leads from one loop of intestine to another, or that connects the intestine to the bladder, vagina, or skin. Fistulas occur most commonly around the anal area. If this complication arises, you may notice drainage of mucus, pus, or stool from this opening.

I also suffer from degenerative disc disease, spondylitis, arthritis, sweet’s syndromeErythema nodosum, eye infections…the list goes on and on. All stemming from one autoimmune disorder.

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again.

It doesn’t just affect your stomach. It rocks your world and tears your body apart.

Could I be binge eating?

Cookies and cupcakesHabits, especially bad ones, are really difficult to kick. I’ve heard that you only need 21 days to change a habit, or something along those lines. But when you have habits that taste so good, like chocolate cupcakes, or ice cream, 21 days seems like a lifetime! If you’re like me, you can’t even make it past day 2 without that cookie finding its way into your mind, then your hand, and then mouth and before you know you, you have went back for seconds.

I have the same problem with coke. It might as well be liquid crack. I’m usually good through the week because I don’t have access to the sugary delight during the day. Weekends are a completely different story where cokes call my name from the fridge. The easiest solution would be to just stop drinking and buying coke but it’s like my coffee. I have no other source of caffeine or enjoyment since I rarely have sweets at home.

At the office, on the other hand, is like a two-sided coin. Where cookies, chocolate candies, and gushers abound in the cabinets of the kitchen. Right beside the water cooler where I fill up. I will avoid the cookies until I get that stressful email from the boss or client and then my immediate response is to find something sweet in the kitchen to make me feel better.

I’m not sure if the reaction is to eat something sweet, or just eat. But I usually eat a few of whatever I grab. And then I decide I would like another. And maybe another. If I’m super busy, then I won’t think twice about grabbing a snack at work. It’s those times when I have gaps in my days, usually after lunch.

This weekend I was wondering if this could be classified as binge eating? I’ve always know binge eating to mean that you eat large amounts of food, almost uncontrollably. According to the Mayo Clinic, “Binge-eating disorder is a serious eating disorder in which you frequently consume unusually large amounts of food.” I wouldn’t classify my 3 or 4 cookies as a binge eating disorder but one symptom does stand out: eating even when you’re full. I do this, especially with sweets. Almost nothing can stop me from taking in a cookie or cupcake even when I’m full from a meal.

But after reading through some of the information, I realize I only have some really bad habits, not necessarily a disorder or disease. Not sure if that makes it easier or more difficult to overcome. Either way, I have to make a change. And that change must start now, with the unnecessary habits I have at work.

That delicious looking cupcake can be found at Life With Cake.

Zumba Dance Party!

I am usually not one to jump on fads or bandwagons but I have been in love with Zumba for months! There is something about awesome music, great dancing, whooping and hollering all while getting in an epic sweat that makes for an amazing workout. I love the dancing so much that I bought the Wii video game.

The video game isn’t as much fun as going to a class filled with almost 50 zumba lovers but it is still a great workout. The game does get a little repetitive but the dancing is still fun. I love that our instructors change up the routines each week so we can a lot of variety; everything from salsa to celtic bluegrass! The best part of the game is that you get a waist band to hold the Wii controller so you can freely use your arms and hands. The game is measured by the movement of your hips.

Zumba

I'm sure this is how I look!

So that is what I did today. An hour of zumba at the rec center early this morning and then took the dogs for a nice long walk since it was beautiful outside. Overall this week, I did terrible. The week started with a ridiculously delicious Valentines Day dinner at The Capital Grille. Filet, lobster mac and cheese, mashed potatoes, Parmesan truffle fries, champagne, and cheesecake to go. The rest of the week wasn’t any better. We didn’t go grocery shopping so our eating was off. Our schedule was off so we get home late.

But these are all excuses and complaints. I just need to get back on track, starting with grocery shopping this weekend.

What I really need is some motivation so I am off to find more motivation.